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Tekst Pesnı
Mom, I know I let you down
– Anashym, men sizdi renjitkenimdi bilemin
And though you say the days are happy
– Siz kúnder baqytty dep aıtsańyz da
Why is the power off and I’m fucked up?
– Nelikten elektr qýaty óship, men shoshyp kettim?
And, Mom, I know he’s not around
– Al, Anashym, men onyń joq ekenin bilemin
But don’t you place the blame on me
– Biraq kináni maǵan júktemeısiń be
As you pour yourself another drink, yeah
– Ózińizge taǵy bir sýsyn quıyp jatqanda, ıá
I guess we are who we are
– Meniń oıymsha, biz kimbiz
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
– Qarańǵy túnde jarqyraǵan faralar, men ári qaraı júremin
Maybe we took this too far
– Múmkin biz muny tym alysqa aparǵan shyǵarmyz
I went in headfirst, never thinkin’ about who what I said hurt
– Men basymdy alǵa qoıdym, meniń aıtqanym kimge zıan tıgizetini týraly eshqashan oılamadym
In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst
– Qaı óleńde anam eń nashar túsingen shyǵar
The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far?
– Munyń báriniń aýyrtpalyǵy, biraq biz qanshalyqty qyńyr bolsaq ta, men ony tym alysqa apardym ba?
“Cleanin’ Out My Closet” and all them other songs
– “Meniń Shkafymdy tazala” jáne olardyń barlyǵy basqa ánder
But regardless, I don’t hate you ‘cause, Ma
– Biraq báribir, men seni jek kórmeımin, sebebi, Ma
You’re still beautiful to me, ‘cause you’re my mom
– Sen men úshin áli de ádemisiń, óıtkeni sen meniń anamsyń
Though far be it from you to be calm
– Sabyrly bolý senen alys bolsa da
Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm
– Bizdiń úı Vetnam, Shóldi Daýyl boldy
And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb
– Ekeýmiz birge atom bombasyn jasaı alamyz
Equivalent to chemical warfare
– Hımıalyq soǵysqa teń
And forever we could drag this on and on
– Jáne máńgilikke biz ony ári qaraı jalǵastyra alamyz
But agree to disagree, that gift for me
– Biraq kelispeýge kelisińiz, bul men úshin syılyq
Up under the Christmas tree don’t mean shit to me
– Shyrshanyń astynda men úshin boqtyq degen sóz emes
You’re kickin’ me out? It’s fifteen degrees
– Siz meni qýyp jiberesiz be? Bul on bes gradýs
And it’s Christmas Eve, “Little prick, just leave!”
– Al Búgin Rojdestvo Qarsańynda, ” Kishkentaı shanshý, jaı ǵana ket!”
Ma, let me grab my fucking coat!
– Ma, maǵan palto alýǵa ruqsat etińiz!
Anything to have each other’s goats
– Bir-biriniń eshkileri bolýy úshin bári
Why we always at each other’s throats?
– Nelikten biz árqashan bir-birimizdiń tamaǵymyzǵa jabysamyz?
Especially when Dad, he fucked us both
– Ásirese, Ákem, ol trahnýl biz eki
We’re in the same fuckin’ boat
– Biz bir qaıyqta otyrmyz
You’d think that’d make us close (Nope)
– Bul bizdi jaqyndastyrady dep oılaısyz (Joq)
Further away it drove us, but together, headlights shine
– Bul bizdi odan ári alystatty, biraq birge faralar jarqyraıdy
And a car full of belongings, still got a ways to go
– Al zattarǵa toly kólikte áli kóp nárse isteý kerek
Back to grandma’s house, it’s straight up the road
– Ájemniń úıine oralsaq, ol týra jolda
And I was the man of the house, the oldest
– Al men úıdiń adamy, eń úlkeni edim
So my shoulders carried the weight of the load
– Sondyqtan meniń ıyǵym júktiń salmaǵyn kóterdi
Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight-years-old
– Sodan Keıin Neıtti segiz jasynda memleket alyp ketti
And that’s when I realized you were sick
– Sol kezde men seniń aýyryp qalǵanyńdy túsindim
And it wasn’t fixable or changeable
– Jáne bul túzetilmeıtin nemese ózgermeıtin boldy
And to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though, but—
– Osy kúnge deıin biz bir-birimizden alystap kettik, biraq men ony jek kóremin, biraq—
I guess we are who we are
– Meniń oıymsha, biz kimbiz
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
– Qarańǵy túnde jarqyraǵan faralar, men ári qaraı júremin
Maybe we took this too far
– Múmkin biz muny tym alysqa aparǵan shyǵarmyz
‘Cause to this day we remain estranged and I hate it though
– Sebebi biz osy kúnge deıin bir-birimizden alystap bara jatyrmyz, biraq men ony jek kóremin
‘Cause you ain’t even get to witness your grandbabies grow
– Sebebi siz tipti nemerelerińizdiń ósip kele jatqanyna kýá bola almaısyz
But I’m sorry, Mama, for “Cleanin’ Out My Closet”
– Biraq keshirińiz, Anashym, “Shkafymdy Tazalaǵanym úshin”
At the time I was angry, rightfully? Maybe so
– Sol kezde men ashýlandym, bul durys pa? Múmkin solaı shyǵar
Never meant that far to take it, though
– Degenmen, men ony eshqashan alysqa aparǵym kelmedi
‘Cause now I know it’s not your fault, and I’m not makin’ jokes
– Óıtkeni qazir men seniń kináń joq ekenin bilemin jáne ázil-qaljyń jasamaımyn
That song I no longer play at shows
– Bul ándi men endi shoýlarda oınamaımyn
And I cringe every time it’s on the radio
– Jáne bul radıoda bolǵan saıyn men qınalamyn
And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
– Men Natandy úıge ornalastyrý týraly oılaımyn
And all the medicine you fed us and
– Jáne siz bizdi tamaqtandyrǵan barlyq dári-dármekter jáne
How I just wanted you to taste your own
– Men seniń ózińniń dámin tatqanyńdy qalaı qaladym
But now the medication’s takin’ over
– Biraq qazir dári-dármek taýsylyp jatyr
And your mental state’s deterioratin’ slow
– Sizdiń psıhıkalyq kúıińiz baıaý nasharlaıdy
And I’m way too old to cry, this shit is painful, though
– Men jylaýǵa tym qartaıdym, biraq bul boq aýyrady
But, Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo
– Biraq, Ma, Men Seni keshiremin, Natan da, sen de keshiresiń
All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both
– Siz ne istedińiz, ne aıttyńyz, ekeýmizdi de tárbıeleý úshin qoldan kelgenniń bárin jasadyńyz
Foster care, that cross you bear, few may be as heavy as yours
– Patronattyq tárbıe, siz kóteretin kres, sizdikindeı aýyr bolýy múmkin adamdar az
But I love you, Debbie Mathers
– Biraq Men seni Jaqsy Kóremin, Debbı Meters
Oh, what a tangled web we have ‘cause
– O, bizde qandaı shıelenisken jeli bar ‘sebebi
One thing I never asked was
– Men eshqashan suramaǵan bir nárse boldy
Where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
– Qaıda ebat meniń óli ákem boldy
Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin’ up with every address
– Qarǵys atsyn, meniń oıymsha, ol ár meken-jaıdy saqtaýda qıyndyqtarǵa tap boldy
But I’da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
– Biraq men ár matrasty, ár tasty jáne shóldi kaktýsty aýdardym
Owned a collection of maps
– Kartalar jınaǵyna ıe boldy
And followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
– Jáne balalarymnyń sońynan atlastyń shetine deıin bardy
If someone ever moved ’em from me
– Eger bireý olardy menen alystatsa
That you coulda bet your asses
– Siz ózińizdiń esekterińizge bás tige alasyz
If I had to come down the chimney, dressed as Santa, kidnap ’em
– Eger Men Aıaz Atanyń kıimin kıip, murjadan túsýim kerek bolsa, olardy urlap ketińiz
And although one has only met their grandma once
– Ájesimen bir-aq ret kezdeskenimen
You pulled up in our drive one night
– Bir kúni keshke siz bizdiń kólikpen kele jatyp toqtadyńyz
As we were leavin’ to get some hamburgers
– Biz gambýrgerlerdi alý úshin ketip bara jatqanda
Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you
– Men, ol Jáne Neıt, biz sizdi tanystyrdyq, qushaqtadyq
And as you left, I had this overwhelming sadness
– Al sen ketip bara jatqanda, men qatty qaıǵyrdym
Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths and
– Biz óz joldarymyzben júrý úshin ketip bara jatqanda, maǵan kelińiz jáne
I saw your headlights as I looked back
– Artqa qarasam, seniń faralaryńdy kórdim
And I’m mad I didn’t get the chance to
– Men muny isteýge múmkindigim bolmaǵanyna ashýlanamyn
Thank you for being my mom and my dad
– Meniń anam jáne meniń ákem bolǵanyńyz úshin rahmet
So, Mom, please accept this as a
– Endeshe, Anashym, mynany qabyl alyńyz
Tribute; I wrote this on the jet, I guess I had to
– Qurmet; men muny ushaqta jazdym, meniń oıymsha, kerek boldy
Get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to
– Muny meniń keýdemnen alyp tastańyz, meniń múmkindigim bolady dep úmittenemin
Lay it ‘fore I’m dead, the stewardess said to fasten
– Men ólgenshe jatqyzyńyz, stúardessa bekitińiz dedi
My seatbelt, I guess we’re crashin’
– Meniń qaýipsizdik belbeýim, meniń oıymsha, biz apatqa ushyradyq’
So, if I’m not dreamin’, I hope you get this message that
– Sondyqtan, eger men armandamasam, siz bul habardy alasyz dep úmittenemin
I will always love you from afar, ‘cause you’re my mom
– Men seni árqashan alystan jaqsy kóremin, óıtkeni sen meniń anamsyń
I guess we are who we are
– Meniń oıymsha, biz kimbiz
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
– Qarańǵy túnde jarqyraǵan faralar, men ári qaraı júremin
Maybe we took this too far
– Múmkin biz muny tym alysqa aparǵan shyǵarmyz
I want a new life (Start over)
– Men jańa ómir súrgim keledi (basynan bastańyz)
One without a cause (Clean slate)
– Bireýi sebepsiz (Bos paraq)
So I’m coming home tonight (Yeah)
– Sondyqtan men búgin keshke úıge qaıtamyn (Iá)
Well, no matter what the cost
– Al, quny qandaı bolsa da
And if the plane goes down
– Al eger ushaq tómen tússe
Or if the crew can’t wake me up
– Nemese ekıpaj meni oıata almasa
Well, just know that I’m alright
– Meniń jaǵdaıym jaqsy ekenin bil
I was not afraid to die
– Men ólýden qoryqpadym
Oh, even if there’s songs to sing
– O, tipti án aıtatyn ánder bolsa da
Well, my children will carry me
– Al, meniń balalarym meni alyp júredi
Just know that I’m alright
– Tek meniń jaqsy ekenimdi bil
I was not afraid to die
– Men ólýden qoryqpadym
Because I put my faith in my little girls
– Óıtkeni men kishkentaı qyzdaryma senemin
So I’ll never say goodbye cruel world
– Sondyqtan men eshqashan qatygez álemmen qoshtaspaımyn
Just know that I’m alright
– Tek meniń jaqsy ekenimdi bil
I am not afraid to die
– Men ólýden qoryqpaımyn
I guess we are who we are
– Meniń oıymsha, biz kimbiz
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
– Qarańǵy túnde jarqyraǵan faralar, men ári qaraı júremin
Maybe we took this too far
– Múmkin biz muny tym alysqa aparǵan shyǵarmyz
I want a new life
– Men jańa ómir alǵym keledi
[Produced by Emile Haynie & Jeff Bhasker]
– [Prodúser: Emıl Heını jáne djeff Bhasker]
