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What if I’m selfish? What if I’m the reason behind it?
– Quid, si ego necavi? Quid, si ego causam post eam?
What if I’m overprotective with family because of how mine is?
– Quid si ego overprotective cum familia propter quam meum est?
What if I’m jealous?
– Quid est invidia?
Maybe that’s what’s making me nervous
– Forsitan id quod me timidus facit
What if my effort of pullin’ you close are pushin’ you further?
– Quod si conatus meus de pullin ‘prope es pushin’ tu longius?
What if I’m selfish?
– Quid, si ego necavi?
What if the reason they call me “The Greatest”
– Quod si causam vocant me ” Maximum”
Is also the reason that me and you livin’ on different pages?
– Tu vive et vale et tu vive ‘ diversis paginis?
What if I’m too much?
– Quid si ego nimium?
What if I settled and I didn’t fight?
– Quid faciam si non revertes?
What if my fear of doin’ it wrong’s the reason I haven’t been doin’ it right?
– Quod si timor meus doin ‘quod suus’ iniuriam causam non fuisse doin ‘ ius?
What if I’m selfish?
– Quid, si ego necavi?
What if the kids just wanna be kids
– Quod si haedos iustus volo esse haedos
And don’t wanna live in and out of the news and chill
– Et non quia in et ut et repellat
And don’t even wanna be rich?
– Mm il est riche?
And what if I’m so self-centred that I don’t even realise what I could miss?
– Et quid si ita sum sitas ut ne quidem animadverto quod potest deesset?
And what if I’m, what if I’m fallin’ in the abyss?
– Quid est, si me caderet’ in abysso?
Maybe it’s— (What if I’m—)
– Forsitan suus— (Quid si ego—)
Yeah
– Yeah
Maybe it’s dark, maybe it’s day, maybe it’s too many nights in L.A.
– Forsitan obscura est, fortasse dies est, fortasse nimis multae noctes in L. A.
Look at the house in Surrey and still, all of the feelings we hid in the Hills
– Vide Domum In Surrey et adhuc omnes affectus in Collibus abscondimus
Maybe it’s you, maybe it’s me, maybe the media or the provoking
– Forsitan tu, fortasse mihi est, fortasse media vel exasperans
Gave you my heart, I laid it bare, funny you went and you poked it
– Et dedit tibi cor meum, et posuit illud nudum, ridiculam tu venisti et fuisti
What if it’s better with me out the way? What if it’s better with me out the—
– Quod si suus ‘ melius mihi de via? Quid si melius mihi est—
Like, what if it’s better with me out the way?
– Velut, quod si suus ‘ melius mihi de via?
What if I’m poison? What if I’m cancer?
– Nella coda sta il veleno. Quando est in cancro?
What if I’m dangerous and I’m wild?
– Quid, si essem bona anima??
Look in my eyes, you’re seein’ a child
– Vide in oculis meis, tu seein ‘ puerum
What if he’s broken? What if he’s scared?
– Quid est, si corrumpitur? Quod si suus ‘ terrebis?
What if he’s ostracised and vilified?
– Quid est, si destruatur et contemnitur?
See, peace is just an illusion
– Et pax est illusio
Ain’t got a home, I live in confusion
– Non enim commiserant unde confunderentur
What if I’m selfish?
– Quid, si ego necavi?
Forever, forever, forever
– Quia non pro-icit ad meritum ” itae aeternae.
I manage the symptoms forever
– Quia non pro-icit ad meritum ” itae aeternae
You can love how you want
– Potes amare quam vis
I know to give is no loss
– Non opus est verba perdere
Can you settle for second
– Puoi scrivere tutta la seconda
And let go of your idea of heaven?
– Et propter voluntatem tuam erant et creata sunt”.
I know it’s a lot
– Scio suus multus
But it might be all that I’ve got
– Sed illud esset omne quod ego got
I wanna throw myself in
– Volo me mittere in
Snap off the mask
– Larva disrumpam
I want a clown that sings
– Ego habeo canem et multum pulchra est
And a love that lasts
– Et amore dirigas
I wanna escape the wedding
– Volo esse certus de tuo nuntio
Go with you to the carriage
– Vade tecum ad raeda
I wanna give you my life
– Volo tibi vitam meam
Or at least something to cherish
– Vel saltem aliquid fovere
But what if I’m selfish?
– Sed quid ego sim ambitiosus?
I done a lot of things I regret
– Multum feci quae paenitet
Like announcin’ our split on a text
– Sicut annuntiatio ‘ diploma in un texto
Don’t know why, but I still buy gifts for my ex
– Nescio quare, sed adhuc dona mea ex-plico emere
Watchin’ her stories to see if she checks
– Watchin ‘ videtur mihi aliquid momenti ad verum afferre posse libra
I’m a mess, I don’t know if my head’s in the game
– Ego pulmentum, nescio si caput meum in ludo
She told me don’t mention her name, I’m suggestin’ the same
– Et dixit mihi non nominare nomen eius, im ‘suggertin’ idem
I’ma get through the pain, wanna see the sunshine, gotta get through the rain
– Im ‘ adepto per dolorem, vis videre solem, redditus est nobis ut per pluviam
Bag full of trauma, I left on the train
– Sacculum plenum trauma, in comitatu reliqui
I’m ashamed for the days that I said that I changed, I’m a cheat
– Erubesco diebus quibus dixi me mutatum esse, fraus sum
Sat in a therapist chair cryin’ like a baby in the middle of a Harley Street
– Sedit in cathedra clinicus cryin’ sicut infans in medio Plateae Harley
Like I’m fightin’ this sickness that I can’t beat, I’m disloyal
– Sicut sum pugnae ‘ haec languor quod verberare non possum, infidelis sum
And then I go mad, reflection tellin’ me I’m just like my dad
– Et ego si essem tuo loco, scirem, quid facerem.’ im ‘ iustus amo mihi pater meus
And this white woman tellin’ me it ain’t so bad
– Et haec mulier alba tellin ‘ mihi non ita malum
Middle of my sentence she cut me off, like, “Sorry, David, we don’t have any more time
– Interim de mea sententia, quae me abstulit, ” Paenitet, David, non habemus amplius tempus
Your appointment till 4 and it’s 3:55″
– Tuum institutum usque ad 4 et suus 3: 55″
Bruh, I feel like she wouldn’t even care if I died
– Dolores ea non molestiae ea quisquam sint
Man, I tried all this therapy shit, man, I tried all this therapy shit
– Homo, ego conatus omne lorem stercore, homo, conatus sum omnia haec lorem stercore
Bruh, I know, wouldn’t even say I’m depressed
– Bruh, scio, ne dicam quidem depressus sum
But I’m low in the Grosvenor Casino in Edgware Road
– Sed ego sum humilis In Grosvenor Varius Edgware Via
I’ve got too many sins to atone and a voice in my head, like
– Ego quoque surrexit multis peccatis, ut expiarent vocem meam, et in capite, sicut
At this point, like, at this point where you should’ve been rich, like
– In hac parte, sicut, in hac parte, ubi oportet te esse dives, sicut
At this point where you should’ve had kids, like
– In hac parte ubi haedos habuisse debes, sicut
At this point should’ve built you a life, like
– Hic tibi vitam aedificavit, sicut
Look around you, don’t you feel you’re behind? Like
– Vis videre, si tu non amas? Sicut
Look around you, don’t you feel you’re behind? Like
– Vis videre, si tu non amas? Sicut
Look around you, don’t you feel like, like
– Tu quidem reddes, si tibi non placet, cum
What if I never find love?
– Quid si ego numquam amorem invenio?
Don’t know if it’s scarier, the thought of us two together or bein’ alone
– Nescio si suus ‘scarier, cogitatio nos duo simul vel bein’ solus
I’m so used to bein’ alone
– Ego igitur solebat esse’ solus
What if I’m somebody nobody wants?
– Quod si quis me vult?
What if I’m damaged or what if I waited too long
– Quid si laedor aut si nimis longum expectavi
And have mould on me? What if I’m cold on me?
– Et estne forma in me? Quid est: si me colas?
What if I cut off the hand that I hold on me?
– Quid si praeciderem manum quam teneo?
What if I’m rapidly spiralin’ and tired and jaded?
– Quid si ego cursim spiralin’ stantes et rapaces?
Or what if I’m faded? Or what if anxiety’s growin’ inside me
– Quid si ego cesso? Aut quid si crescunt anxietatem ‘ intus mihi
That I might have left all my best years behind me?
– Ut dereliquerim omnes annos meos post me?
Or what if I’m scared as I touch twenty-seven
– Aut si quid ego terrebis tangere sicut viginti septem
That you don’t appear in my idea of heaven?
– Numquid in paradiso non apparebis?
Or what if I’m, what if I’m
– Ma se ciò fosse, come avrebbe
What if I’m selfish?
– Quid, si ego necavi?
