Topenga Ataata
Kupu Tūpato
What if I’m selfish? What if I’m the reason behind it?
– He aha te mea he whaiaro ahau? He aha te take kei muri i ahau?
What if I’m overprotective with family because of how mine is?
– He aha te mea he nui rawa taku tiaki i te whānau nā te mea he pēhea taku?
What if I’m jealous?
– He aha te mea ka hae ahau?
Maybe that’s what’s making me nervous
– Tērā pea ko te mea e whakawehi ana i ahau
What if my effort of pullin’ you close are pushin’ you further?
– He aha te mea e akiaki ana koe i taku kaha ki te kumea atu?
What if I’m selfish?
– He aha te mea he whaiaro ahau?
What if the reason they call me “The Greatest”
– He aha te take ka karanga ratou ki ahau ” Te Nui”
Is also the reason that me and you livin’ on different pages?
– Koia hoki te take i ora ai maua ko koe i runga i ngā whārangi rerekē?
What if I’m too much?
– He aha te mea he nui rawa ahau?
What if I settled and I didn’t fight?
– He aha mehemea i noho ahau, a kihai ahau i whawhai?
What if my fear of doin’ it wrong’s the reason I haven’t been doin’ it right?
– He aha mēnā ko taku wehi ki te mahi kino te take kāore au i mahi tika?
What if I’m selfish?
– He aha te mea he whaiaro ahau?
What if the kids just wanna be kids
– He aha te mea e hiahia ana nga tamariki kia tamariki
And don’t wanna live in and out of the news and chill
– A kaua e hiahia ki te noho ki roto ki waho hoki o te rongo me te makariri
And don’t even wanna be rich?
– A e kore e ara e hiahia ana ki te kia taonga?
And what if I’m so self-centred that I don’t even realise what I could miss?
– A, mehemea he tino whaiaro ahau, kāore au i te mōhio he aha taku e ngaro ai?
And what if I’m, what if I’m fallin’ in the abyss?
– A, ki te mea ko ahau, ki te mea kei te hinga ahau i roto i te poka?
Maybe it’s— (What if I’m—)
– Pea te reira— (He aha ki te ahau -)
Yeah
– Ae
Maybe it’s dark, maybe it’s day, maybe it’s too many nights in L.A.
– Tērā pea he pōuri, tērā pea he ao, tērā pea he maha rawa ngā pō i L. A.
Look at the house in Surrey and still, all of the feelings we hid in the Hills
– Titiro ki Te whare i Surrey, me te tonu, katoa o nga mana’o huna matou i roto i nga Pukepuke
Maybe it’s you, maybe it’s me, maybe the media or the provoking
– Tērā pea ko koe, tērā pea ko au, tērā pea ko te pāpāho, ko te whakaoho rānei
Gave you my heart, I laid it bare, funny you went and you poked it
– I hoatu e ahau toku ngakau ki a koe, i takoto kau ahau, i haere ngahau koe, a ka werohia e koe
What if it’s better with me out the way? What if it’s better with me out the—
– He aha te mea pai ki ahau i roto i te ara? He aha te mea pai ki ahau i roto i te—
Like, what if it’s better with me out the way?
– Ka rite ki, he aha te mea pai ki ahau i roto i te ara?
What if I’m poison? What if I’m cancer?
– He aha te mea he paitini ahau? He aha te mea he mate pukupuku ahau?
What if I’m dangerous and I’m wild?
– He aha mēnā he mōrearea ahau, he mohoao hoki?
Look in my eyes, you’re seein’ a child
– Titiro ki aku kanohi, kei te kite koe i tētahi tamaiti
What if he’s broken? What if he’s scared?
– He aha te mea kua pakaru ia? He aha te mea e mataku ana ia?
What if he’s ostracised and vilified?
– Ka pēhea mēnā ka whakakahoretia, ka whakahaweatia ia?
See, peace is just an illusion
– Tirohia, he whakaaro noa iho te rangimarie
Ain’t got a home, I live in confusion
– Kāore he kāinga, e noho pōuri ana ahau
What if I’m selfish?
– He aha te mea he whaiaro ahau?
Forever, forever, forever
– Ake ake, ake ake, ake ake
I manage the symptoms forever
– Ka whakahaerehia e au nga tohu mo ake tonu atu
You can love how you want
– Ka taea e koe te aroha me pehea e hiahia ana koe
I know to give is no loss
– E mohio ana ahau ki te hoatu he kore mate
Can you settle for second
– Ka taea e koe te whakatau mo te tuarua
And let go of your idea of heaven?
– Na kia haere atu o koutou whakaaro o te rangi?
I know it’s a lot
– E mōhio ana ahau he nui
But it might be all that I’ve got
– Engari ko te mea anake pea kei a au
I wanna throw myself in
– E hiahia ana ahau ki te maka i ahau ki roto
Snap off the mask
– Tangohia te kopare
I want a clown that sings
– E hiahia ana ahau ki tētahi pūhara e waiata ana
And a love that lasts
– Me te aroha e mau tonu ana
I wanna escape the wedding
– E hiahia ana ahau ki te mawhiti i te marena
Go with you to the carriage
– Haere ki te waka
I wanna give you my life
– E hiahia ana ahau ki te hoatu ki a koe toku ora
Or at least something to cherish
– Ranei i te iti rawa te tahi mea ki te aroha
But what if I’m selfish?
– Engari he aha mēnā he whaiaro ahau?
I done a lot of things I regret
– He maha nga mea i mahia e au e pouri ana ahau
Like announcin’ our split on a text
– Ka rite ki te whakapuaki i to tatou wehenga i runga i te kuputuhi
Don’t know why, but I still buy gifts for my ex
– Kaore au i te mohio he aha, engari kei te hoko tonu ahau i nga taonga mo taku ex
Watchin’ her stories to see if she checks
– Te mātakitaki i āna kōrero kia kite mēnā ka tirohia e ia
I’m a mess, I don’t know if my head’s in the game
– He raru ahau, kaore au i te mohio mena kei te takaro taku mahunga
She told me don’t mention her name, I’m suggestin’ the same
– I ki mai ia ki ahau kia kaua e whakahua i tōna ingoa, e whakaaro ana ahau kia pēnei anō
I’ma get through the pain, wanna see the sunshine, gotta get through the rain
– I’ma get through the pain, wanna see the sunshine, gotta get through the rain
Bag full of trauma, I left on the train
– Peke ki tonu i te wharanga, i mahue ahau i runga i te tereina
I’m ashamed for the days that I said that I changed, I’m a cheat
– Kei te whakama ahau mo nga ra i kii ai ahau kua puta ke ahau, he tinihanga ahau
Sat in a therapist chair cryin’ like a baby in the middle of a Harley Street
– Noho i roto i te tūru therapist tangi’ rite te tamaiti i roto i te waenganui o Te Harley Street
Like I’m fightin’ this sickness that I can’t beat, I’m disloyal
– Ka rite ki te whawhai ahau ‘ tenei mate e kore e taea e ahau te patu, ahau tinihanga
And then I go mad, reflection tellin’ me I’m just like my dad
– Na ka haurangi ahau, ka whakaaro mai ki ahau, he rite tonu ahau ki taku papa
And this white woman tellin’ me it ain’t so bad
– A ko tēnei wahine mā e kī mai ana ki ahau ehara i te mea kino rawa
Middle of my sentence she cut me off, like, “Sorry, David, we don’t have any more time
– I waenganui i taku rerenga kōrero ka tapahia ahau e ia, pēnei i, ” E Pouri Ana Ahau, E Rawiri, kāore anō kia whai wā mātou
Your appointment till 4 and it’s 3:55″
– Ko to whakarite tae noa ki te 4 me te 3: 55″
Bruh, I feel like she wouldn’t even care if I died
– Bruh, ki taku whakaaro kaore ia e aro ki te mate ahau
Man, I tried all this therapy shit, man, I tried all this therapy shit
– E te tangata, i whakamātauria e au ēnei mea katoa, e te tangata, i whakamātauria e au ēnei mea katoa
Bruh, I know, wouldn’t even say I’m depressed
– Bruh, e mohio ana ahau, e kore e ara mea ahau pouri
But I’m low in the Grosvenor Casino in Edgware Road
– Engari kei raro ahau i te Grosvenor Casino i Edgware Road
I’ve got too many sins to atone and a voice in my head, like
– He nui rawa aku hara hei whakamarie, hei reo hoki i roto i toku mahunga, pērā i
At this point, like, at this point where you should’ve been rich, like
– I tēnei wā, pērā i, i tēnei wā i tika ai kia whai rawa koe, pērā i
At this point where you should’ve had kids, like
– I tēnei wā, me whai tamariki koe, pēnei i
At this point should’ve built you a life, like
– I tēnei wā me hanga e koe he oranga, pēnei i
Look around you, don’t you feel you’re behind? Like
– Titiro a tawhio noa koe, e kore e fe koe kei muri koe? Ka rite ki
Look around you, don’t you feel you’re behind? Like
– Titiro a tawhio noa koe, e kore e fe koe kei muri koe? Ka rite ki
Look around you, don’t you feel like, like
– Titiro a tawhio noa koe, e kore eel koe rite, rite
What if I never find love?
– He aha te mea e kore ahau e kitea te aroha?
Don’t know if it’s scarier, the thought of us two together or bein’ alone
– Kaua e mōhio mēnā he mea whakamataku ake, ko te whakaaro o tātou tokorua, ko tātou anake rānei
I’m so used to bein’ alone
– Kua whakamahia ahau ki te noho mokemoke
What if I’m somebody nobody wants?
– He aha te mea he tangata ahau kaore he tangata e hiahia ana?
What if I’m damaged or what if I waited too long
– He aha te mea kua pakaru ahau, he aha ranei te mea i tatari roa ahau
And have mould on me? What if I’m cold on me?
– He pokepokea ai ki ahau? He aha te mea he makariri ahau ki ahau?
What if I cut off the hand that I hold on me?
– Ka pēhea mēnā ka tapahia e au te ringa e mau ana ki ahau?
What if I’m rapidly spiralin’ and tired and jaded?
– Ka pēhea mēnā ka tere taku hurihuri, ka ngenge, ka ngenge?
Or what if I’m faded? Or what if anxiety’s growin’ inside me
– He aha te mea kua ngaro ahau? Ranei he aha te mea e tipu ana te manukanuka i roto i ahau
That I might have left all my best years behind me?
– Tērā pea i waiho e au aku tau pai katoa ki muri i ahau?
Or what if I’m scared as I touch twenty-seven
– Ranei he aha te mea e mataku ana ahau i taku pa atu ki te rua tekau ma whitu
That you don’t appear in my idea of heaven?
– E kore koe e puta i roto i toku whakaaro o te rangi?
Or what if I’m, what if I’m
– Ranei he aha ki te ahau, he aha ki te ahau
What if I’m selfish?
– He aha te mea he whaiaro ahau?
